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    <title>stephixlove's Journals on Buzznet</title>
    <description><![CDATA[I'm Stephi.
I so live in U.S.A
Music = fanfrickenamazing!
Singing is chill]]></description>
    <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/</link>
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	      <title><![CDATA[it's time that the change slowly stops.]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2999681/time-change-slowly-stops/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[I've realized that all |SUmmer long, that i wanted a drastic change.
I wanted to be someone totally different than who i was, who i am now.
I really honestly had no clue what was going to become of myself.
I had realized though that my new friends are my family.
I love them all with everything i have, and for all of your information, i have real friends that aren't on Buzznet.
I just don't like them, like the friends i haveon here.
Desi, called me up like an hour ago and told me she was caughton the |Jimmy Kimmel show!
I saw her singing|! I was like lucky bitch, hahah I love that girl!
But i'll meet T|okio Hotel one day in teh future, =]

but anyway, the change has changed, I'm going to be myself, and i never really had one look to call my own, i choose what i wanted to wear when i wanted to wear it.
You all can honestly hate me, i don't give a hoot!
I like my life the way it is now!

Well thats the reason why i've decided that change is overrated and being who i truly am is being unique.


I think i'll be unique, what do you say??]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-09-10T19:37:41Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[something weird is going on !!]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2953951/something-weird-going/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Ok, so i was listening to a song about a few minutes ago and i swear i just looked at the song time and it was just starting, but then i looked again and the song was almost over. I swear i only blinked .. but something weird is going on ..
It's starting to freak me out cause it was like that also when i was making dinner. It was like 8:23 pm and then when i looked at the clock it was around 9:31 pm, and i don't remember what i was doing in between the interval! 

i think i need sleep ..

taking a shower, bye loves and lovelys.]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-09-01T19:56:27Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Uhm, this has so much emotion, but doesn't have a name can you all help?? please??]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2881211/uhm-much-emotion-but-doesnt/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[I only want to be free
I want you to let me be me
I've been running all my life 
But it has to stop at at certain point 

Life is short and we must live it right
But all you seem to do is use your smight
Words are spoken and fists are thrown
And by your look i should have known

But i was to nice to you
Yelling and screaming was what you always used to do
The look in my eyes was not enough
You used to yell at me for not being tough enough

Look at me now and tell me i've changed
I'm not going to be like you
Cause I'm afraid mum your only deranged!
I will laugh at how you look
Just because of what you took

Drinking and smoking is wearing you down
But all you do is drive around town
More boos and cigs
And look at your husband who is a fat pig

he yells and screams 
and i bitch at him
But he'll just slap me to the floor 
And then the blood will start to pour

Why can't i be free 
Just like the other kids i see
I want to be normal 
But the bruises and cuts keep me back
And it's like I'm on a forever long track

Never stopping
Growing tired
Becoming sick
Never being able to pick
Just who i want to be
When i'm finally able to be set free]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-08-18T20:43:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[You're not like everyone .. are you??]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2875641/youre-not-like-everyone/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[this is is one of my first and it will possibly suck, please don't hate me ..

This is for my mum, who treats me like i'm dirt.



How can yuo stand to see me hurt
But then again you treat me like dirt
The ground seems to be my only friend
Since you shove me there and there again

I've tried to put teh pain in the past
But it seems that everytime i see your face
The memories just come back to me at a fast pace
the memory of being hurt by you has to end
I can't take this pain that is one of my only friends

can't you just love me like every other mother
Why can't you be like my father?
But then again you're not like everyone else
You treat and beat everyone who is different

I'm your flesh and blood
I'm your daughter, i'm just like you ..
Never in mylife have i raised a hand to you
And yet you have to me
Why can you mother just leave me be

i want to be normal for once
but when i stay with you at you place
i only cry and hide from your rage
I'm the bird in the cage
You just shake and shake till i'm hurt

can't you just love me like every other mother
Why can't you be like my father?
But then again you're not like everyone else
You treat and beat everyone who is different


I love you with my heart and soul
But you'll turn around and hit me with a bowl
I can't take your abuse
I'd rather hang on a noose 
My feet flowing in the wind
Just to get away from you and your fucking hits

You smoke and drink till your done
Then you get angry and take it out on me
What the fuck have i done to earn this?
when you hit me it's only for you; bliss
I cry and beg for you to stop
but you still carry on till i drop

I love you mother but the abuse is killing me
Please tell everyone when I'm done and gone
that it wasn't there fault
it was just my time to go and live in the beyond
I love you all but the pain and blood is just to red
the red is my pain and it will be the last you see of me

can't you just love me like every other mother
Why can't you be like my father?
But then again you're not like everyone else
You treat and beat everyone who is different

So long to you 
So long to the whole world
I loved you buti guess you couldn't love me in return]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-08-17T21:17:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[PL|EASE TAKE!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2860171/pl-ease-take-love-all/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Please answer All questions, i don't care if there ridiculous answers just answer them please!!!!!!!!!!!




1.Who r u?[ ]
2.R we close? [ ]
3.Spell mi name [ ]
4.Do u love me? [ ]
5.Would u be sad if i left buzz? [ ]
6.do u consider me a best friend? [ ]
7.If i had a problem would u help me? [ ]
8.Can i come to u with anyhing and ud help me?[ ]
9.would u date me? [ ]
10. wanna be in mi shoutout?[ ]

............and just how well do u no me?


11. Wat is mi favorite color? [ ]
12. Who am i crushing on? [ ] 
13. Why have i stayed on buzz even when i wanted to leave? [ ]
14. Wats mi middle name?[ ]
15. have i trusted u and gave u mi # ? [ ]
16. Wat do u think of me? [ ]
17. am i........
[ ] pretty
[ ] hawt
[ ] georgus
[ ] beautiful
[ ]amazing
[ ] id date u!!
[ ]i love u!!!


18. anything u want to say to me?

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19. wat do u htink of me?

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20. give me a nick name anything u want

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21. any advice for me?

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22.wat do u like best about me?

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23. if u wouldnt date me....why?

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24. anything to say b4 u go?

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		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-08-14T23:57:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Text me! Or Call me!]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2848131/text-call/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Since my dumb ass friends in my town are fucking ditching me because they say i've changed for the bad...
Which is TOTALLY WRONG!!!
I changed to figure out who i want to be, and I'm close i think!


BUT ANYWAY!!

Text me!

OR

Call me!



Well don't call me now, it's 2: 30 am and my dad would rip my bloody head off and take my phone away and possibly snap it in half!


But call me when you figure out what time it is here in the Boston Area of Massachusetts!

Please |Text me though!

My number #: 508-298-9788


Please and Thank you.



p.s. if your a creepy pedophile, please don't call me or text me thanks =D
 xD]]></description>
		  		  	<category>callme textme loveme</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-08-12T23:19:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[rawrrrrrrrrr??]]></title>
	      <link>http://stephixlove.buzznet.com/user/journal/2840611/rawrrrrrrrrr/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
my collar bone?

Whats your favorite colour?
um, black and red

Would you ever donate blood?
already have



What are you thinking about right now?
why my boyfriend cheated on me and if i want to eat the orange sherbet that my dad bribed me with to give him money.




What time did you go to sleep last night?
around 3:34 am

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
Warped Tour '08 at the comcast center!!!!!
All Time F&%@#ing Low

Ever kissed someone who smokes?
yeap.



Is someone on your mind right now?
yer


Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
dur, it was funny he forgot i was staying in the same room so he walked around in his ducky boxers!

Who has your heart?
Your mom, 
no uhm idk.




What are you listening to?
Break Out! Break Out! -All Time Low


Who were you with last night?
no one, i was home alone

Do you believe in love?
with my luck no, but i hope there's love.

When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
Ahahah, i was with my brother. It was hilarious.


What do you regret in 2008 so far?
Dating Michael...




Do you curse a lot?
|Fuck yeah, i mean what gave you that impression??

Who was the last person you laid in a bed with?
uhh...Oh! Ayyden


Where's the person you have feelings for right now ?
uhm, the person i HAD feelings for isprobably fucking my best friend.

Have you ever drank with your number one?
we have number ones on this site?
i think someone took this from myspace!



If you got married to the last person you kissed what would your new last name be?
Hatton

What did you do this afternoon?
working sadly i have no life on mondays.


When do you plan on having kids?
yeah but after i go to college, get a decent job, work for a few years then yes i'll have kids.


Can you use chopsticks?
yes, i blame my sister.

How old were you when you lost your first tooth?
uhm, how am i supposed to remember that?


When was the last time you got flowers?
it was a wedding, not mine, but someone said my dress was pretty and they gave me flowers

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because i think i was drunk?


Why did you throw up last?
i was really sick.


Last time you were on the phone/how long and with who?
my dad, it was like 2 minutes.

Ever been to the Statue of Liberty?
nope, but i will be soon



When was the last time you cried and why?
a couple of days ago because my ex-boyfriend cheated on me



How many e-mail addresses do you have?
3.


If your face was as ugly as a clown would you hide in your room everyday and never come out?
possibly.

Last time you washed your hair? 
a day ago, but i was tempted to take a shower before i did this.



Where will you be sleeping tonight?
on the moon, nope my bed.



Do you like Oreos?
yes, especially with peanut butter


Do you send out Thank-You cards?
yep


Can you ice skate?
kind of, but it's with guys skates


Do you have a brother?
yes sir, 2. 
Mikey-19
Johnny-21



Do you know how to change a diaper?
uh yeah.


Do you flip people off while driving?
Yep, but its only when they get me so mad that i loose my temper

How many people do you trust 100% and tell everything to?
Truthfully?
If i told you everything you'd be shocked.
So No one.
besides i have trust issues.


Why do you trust these people?
Trust issues.


Do you go to church?
yes, sometimes.



Do you like to grocery shop?
sometimes, when my dad will let me get what we need for the house.


Who do you miss?
Lily


Last time you cleaned?
like 10 minutes ago.

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
uhm, big mike, caitlin and Ayyden.


What pills do you take daily?
Aspirin when i get a migraine??




What's the last sporting event you watched?
uhm not really into sports.


Do you do your own laundry?
yeah. 



If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Germany, France, England, Ireland, Russia, Italy.


Who are your best friends?
Lina Bina. 

Last person you talked to on the phone for over an hour?
uhm, idk


Do you take out the trash?
yeah, well at work i do.


Are you getting engaged any time soon?
not that i know of.

When is the last time you saw your credit report?
don't have a credit report.



Which one of your friends is going to have the cutest baby?
Caitlin.

Status?
Single

relationship?
not in one, jeez.]]></description>
		  		  	<category>mrow</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>stephixlove</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-08-11T17:22:00Z</dc:date>
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